easier said than done

"A little faith will bring your soul to heaven, but a lot of faith will bring heaven to your soul."

I forgot who said this, but it was in my devo book the other day. This week as been crazy. It's been a roller coaster of emotions, but at the end of the day I am so glad I went through it. I've been learning so much lately and yet I'm still thirsty for more. I long to just soak it in, but Father keeps telling me that I will learn what I need to learn when I need to learn it.

I've been learning what it means to be completely dependent on Father. I'm not the type of person who typically has a lot of friends. I always have a best friend or two that I'm with all the time. This week Father has taken that part of my life away. He has shown me that He is a jealous God. He has taken everything (or everyone) away that has kept Him from being my best friend. I can honestly say now that He is my best friend. He is the only one I can go to for everything. He is always there. He never lets me down. Unlike other friends of mine He is with me all the time. We are constantly hanging out. Life is one big road trip with Him every single day (see Audrey's latest blog). Before, I would try to take over the navigations. I tried reading a map to a place I've never been. It's taken me too long, but I've learned that it's better to just turn up the music, stick your bare feet out the window, and soak up the Son.

Another thing I'm learning is the difference between saying and actually doing. Telling others and even yourself that you have all this faith in Father is so easy. Anyone can play the part, but Father doesn't want this to be a play. Faith isn't just a noun; something that you have. Faith is a verb. You can't just "have" faith...you have to LIVE faith in your everyday life. So many people put their trust in the Lord for salvation, but Father doesn't ask for just that one thing. He demands everything! Every worry, every doubt, every A, every F, every sunny day, every thunderstorm. He wants it all. The good, the bad, and the ugly.